Monday, May 14, 2007

i stand ready

God is working. I don't know how I have become at peace with some decisions Scott and I have made in the past few weeks. I began afraid, scared, and defiant and have become strong and at peace. New challenges are always daunting, but today a peace came over me that I can't explain. I've been sewing aprons all afternoon (and they are darn cute!) and that gave me plenty of time to think about the changes we're making in our lives. Why do I sit back and let things happen to me? Why have I let this one situation eat at me so much? Why have I taken a passive seat to what has been going on? Simple. I waited for God to answer. And He did. Yesterday we made up our mind. Today I'm at peace with it. It's amazing how "long" the wait can seem and how "quick" the answer can come. I'm still nervous. Only now it has become an excited nervous. I can't wait to take this step with God. I can't wait to grow even more in His love. I can't wait to see what He has in store for us in this new challenge. I read in Amanda's blog where she said "God equips". Yes sister, He does. What tools I'll use I have no idea. What place I'll take, I have no idea. What new lessons I'll learn, I have no idea. For now I wait. Hands open. Waiting for my new "syllabus". Ready to leap. Excited, not worried. Fearless, not fearful. Ready to take on what's ahead, not sad over what I'll be leaving behind. Use me Lord. I'm yours.


Chrissy said...

Thank you for your wisdom. Sometimes I feel my passive attitude is really my faithlessness. It's good to know I don't have to be in control for things to happen. God doesn't have the same watch I do. His doesn't have numbers on it. Just moments. Moments I want to cherish. If I allow Him to work according to his unique, designer watch. Hmmm. Sounds like the beginning of a good blog!